Owning October?

Mantra Check-In: OWN IT (…or at least try to)

October’s mantra was meant to be all about OWNING IT - stepping into my strength, confidence and all that hard-won badassery from earlier in the year.
In reality? I’ve spent most of it wobbling between “I’ve got this” and “what the actual hell am I doing?”

Coming home from Bali has been a lot. Re-entry hit hard - the routine, the weather, the work backlog, the chaos of markets and orders, and of course juggling life with Rei (equal parts comfort and cling-on challenge). Somewhere in the middle of that mix I lost sight of the confident version of me I thought would come back glowing, zen and ready to crush everything the month (and rest of 2025!) has to throw at me - from workouts and wellbeing to work-based business and pleasure.

Instead, old habits snuck back in. The snooze button got more love than my running shoes, wine crept in where movement should’ve been, and I found myself swinging between exhaustion and self-criticism. Classic me - overthinking the “perfect” plan instead of just owning the imperfect one.

But here’s the thing: maybe owning it this month hasn’t been about strutting around like I’ve got my life together. Maybe it’s been about acknowledging the mess - the tiredness, the slips, the self-doubt - and showing up anyway.

Because despite the wobbles, I did show up. I’ve worked, created, laughed, cried, cuddled the dog, turned up to events, and kept Hello Sunshine ticking. I’ve faced the uncomfortable bits without hiding completely and I’ve acknowledged the small wins. That’s a quieter kind of ownership, but it still counts.

So, as November rolls in with its NOURISH mantra, I’m ready to try and create some balance amidst the crazy of Christmas - maybe even move at a slower pace. Less proving, more soothing. Less self-critique, more care. I might not have owned October in the glossy-Instagram way but I’ve lived it, felt it, and kept going.

And that, my little pickles, is still a win in my jar.

💛