Took me, my tea and I for a walk today
I usually only come up here with Rei, but sheβs not the only crazy bitch who needs walking. I forget that sometimes - that I actually need this too. To move. To breathe. To swear at the wind for blowing my hair sideways. I only came out because the sun was shining and I needed a few snaps for a cheeky giveaway collab (watch this space). But once Iβd taken the photos and finished muttering about the weather, I found myself thinking, why the fuck donβt I come up here more often?
When Reiβs around, weβre up here twice a day β stomping through the fields, splashing in puddles, coming home muddy and happy. But when itβs just me? I somehow forget that Iβm also a creature who needs walking. I tell myself Iβll βgo laterβ or that I βdonβt need to today,β as if walking is a luxury instead of medicine.
Itβs like I need a reason β a goal, a destination, a dog β before I let myself enjoy a simple stroll. But I donβt. None of us do. Because goddamn, this shitβs good for you. #GetTheFuckOutdoors
My Twatty Little Wolf Pack πΊβ¨
I wrote a while back about my two wolves β the idea that weβre all made up of different energies, and whichever one we feed most often tends to steer our days. But honestly? Iβve realised I donβt just have two. Iβve got a whole wolf pack in my headβ¦ and every single one of them needs a good walk now and then.
πΊ The Ego Wolf πΊ
Wants to win, do it properly, and never miss a session.
Strength: Drive and determination.
Shadow: Harsh inner critic, all-or-nothing mindset.
Mantra: Progress, not perfection.
πΊ The Anxious Wolf πΊ
Constantly scanning the horizon for danger.
Strength: Caring, detail-loving, protective.
Shadow: Overthinking, self-doubt, mental spirals.
Mantra: I notice, but I donβt have to chase every thought.
πΊ The Sunshine Soul Wolf πΊ
Lives for melon bowls, painting, yoga, sunsets, and dogs with daft ears.
Strength: Joy, creativity, warmth.
Shadow: Easily overshadowed by louder wolves.
Mantra: I let joy be fuel, not a reward.
πΊ The Hungry Wolf πΊ
Thinks about snacks a lot.
Strength: Nourishment and pleasure.
Shadow: Confuses hunger with emotions, feels guilt for enjoying food.
Mantra: Food is my ally, not my enemy.
πΊ The Adventure Wolf πΊ
Wants newness β Bali trips, paddleboards, paint & sip nights, the open road.
Strength: Courage, spontaneity, curiosity.
Shadow: FOMO and restlessness.
Mantra: Adventure can be bold or gentle β both count.
πΊ The Rest Wolf πΊ
Craves naps, quiet, tea, and cocooning under a blanket with an audiobook.
Strength: Restores balance and energy.
Shadow: Guilt-tripped by Ego Wolf.
Mantra: Rest is a radical act of strength.
paws for thought
When Iβm outdoors, it feels like all of them finally get to stretch their legs.
The anxious one chills the fuck out.
The ego one stops barking orders.
The sunshine one starts to wag her tail again.
Itβs like nature hits reset on the whole pack.
And the more I think about it, the more I realise that maybe the point isnβt to silence any of them β itβs to keep walking with them. To know when to let one take the lead, when to slow down for another, and when to just stand there, breathing in the air, remembering Iβm part of nature too.
I donβt know if any of that makes sense to you lovely lot out there but I guess I just needed to walk the words out today.
Itβs funny how the thoughts that get stuck indoors seem to loosen once Iβm out in the wild. The fresh air, the sound of nature, it can suddenly help things make sense again - or at least feel a bit lighter.
So if youβre feeling tangled or flat or just a bit meh, maybe grab your tea, leash up your own inner wolf pack, and go for a wander. No plan, no pressure, no step count - just you, the breeze, and whatever version of yourself needs walking today.
Fuck, I miss my dog
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